If you could tell me that you had sex with those two boys because it made you happy, because you wanted to, because you felt empowered and turned on - Karen, I am your mother so inside I’m having a tiny seizure - but still I would try hard to be supportive and happy for you. But I don’t think that’s why you did it. I think you were sad. I think you were feeling numb. I think that you thought feeling something would be better than feeling nothing.